Chictopia

For some reason, I have a Chictopia account. Talbog na talbog ang mga damit ko dun lalo na I dont have a vast collection of wardrobe to choose from. Dagdag pa na ninanakawan ako ng katulong ng mga pangit dito sa bahay. Sa ukay-ukay ko na nga lang binili e! Haay. It's frustrating na I used to have some sort of "passion" for designing clothes lalo na nung highschool, pero somehow I lost it starting 4th year college.. I have this weird fashion sense na I know most people wont appreciate, (like my boyfriend..) Kaya nga I lie-low-ed na rin talaga kasi I might embarass him lalo na pag sa labas. I used to sew kahit na hindi maayus, sinisira ko mga ibang damit to make "new" ones.. I used to make bags, wallet, accessories.. I know hindi ganun ka-"pulido" ang gawa ko minsan but I think nap practice ako nun.. And Im happy sa nagagawa ko and SOME actually appreciate what I've done.. Pero ngayon wala na! I cant buy new clothes dahil mahal, wala akong pera talaga. Hindi ako makaipon.. Dati ukay2, kahit 100php lang, ang dami ng mabibili..

I dont know kung dahil sa nagm "mature" lang talaga ako kaya parang corny narin yung ganun ginagawa ko dati na feeling designer na ewan, or hindi ko lang siguro na-"hone" yung skill ko na yun.. And for some reason, Im blaming my course for suppressing? repressing? my artistic potential.. I miss drawing/designing/looking at pretty clothes.. Haay.. I really want to study again.. I think this can help me express all feelings that are bottled inside me.. Ewan! Ang corny ko badtrip. Wala lang.. Kaya nga New Year's Resolution ko rin ngayon na to have a creative outlet.. Haay. Babay..